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depressed with active nervous energy. World War II with its dangers and excitement (5 years of front line leader- ship), marriage, establishment of a new livelihood in a strange state, actual building of our home, raising a fam- ily, self education on the subject of law and psychology and part time work besides a full time job, all occupied a great deal of time and required most of my energy.

During this time I hardly realized that I had grown de- void of feelings or emotions, no doubt this was an escape from the senses that could arouse fear or apprehension. This bottled up emotion had to come out and it did. It led me to embarrassment, loss of health and job and public legal entanglements. However, at no time did any part of my family desert me in this time of need. Working with the scattered pieces of personality we have put together during the last 6 years a degree of maturity and insight that have made us both better individuals. In fact, we have both gained a serenity and happiness that we would probably never have found had it not been for our suffering, self-examination and study. We came to realize that we are all worthy individuals such as we are. And, when we further understood that the other 99% of the citizenry needed our help as well as we needed theirs, we came to feel worthy of being called human beings.

About Virginia's third solution of allowing a feminine personality to grow unintentionally; this thought in bare essence is as much escapeism as her second solution of shifting responsibility. I believe that we make ourselves a feminine creation purposely and with great enjoyment. I do agree that the feminine emotions and feelings are within us and it is up to us how we handle them. Dividing our male and female personalities is unrealistic. A psychia- trist would be quick to call this a form of schizophrenia which of course is not true. (((Ed. Note: This is not a proper use for the word schizophrenia. The prefix schizo- refers to a splitting away or a seperation and this is what happens to the personality of schizophrenics all- right, but their splitting is away from reality into an imaginary world unknown to the rest of normal society.

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